I hope to evolve into such an emotional realization. What recognition of collapse has done for me is set me on a journey without a map. I have found a few outposts in this journey, people who give tips and who understand the emotional turmoil one goes through when "reality bites".
With Spring comes cleaning. I'm cleaning out emotional baggage that serves no purpose but as energy drain. What goes out first? Numbers. Thinking that there will be a lot of people who recognize collapse and will help to transition communities for resilience.
What goes out next? Food. Thinking that if only there could be enough locally produced food, clean water and shelter that it can be worked out. What happened at Fukushima Prefecture enabled me to realize the fallacy in this thinking. And finally, control. Thinking that I can plan what to do next.
I have 2 friends with jobs who are at the point that their paychecks are not covering monthly expenses. I know it will get worse. I want them to recognize it and start plan B rather than scrapping by while thinking it will get better. They tell me "I can't think that way, if I do it's too overwhelming." I understand that anxiety.
I wonder what happened to survival and realize that the anxiety is not a reflection of a survival instinct. It's not in our human experience to have a survival instinct unless it is flight or fright -- the immediate body response to a threat. What is happening to my two friends is more akin to desensitization. It's not about survival, it's about creature comfort.
What is happening to me is recognition of need of civil defense. For whatever reason I am just like that.
